"Create in me a pure heart, O God,
and renew a steadfast spirit within
me" Psalm 51:10
I remember the day I read this and I remember where I was when I was reading it. It was the second day of my new job and I was sitting in my car trying my best not to cry.
It has not been an easy year, and it has not been my proudest either. There was stress in my old job, drama in my family, frustrations and disappointments. So somehow in the middle of all of this, I lost my way. I allowed myself to become someone I almost did not recognize.
When I lost my job, I started coming home late, spending more money then I should, taking out my frustrations on my family, staying away from home, lying about where I was, who I was with, I even stopped planning about my career. I allowed myself to drift. I was a boat going nowhere, just trying to disassociate from all the drama that has become my life.
Finally I was caught driving drunk and I saw the disappointment in my dad's eyes. This woke me up, and I am starting to put my life in order again. But it was only through acknowledging my mistakes that I was able to clean up.
By ignoring them and justifying them, I chose not to see them as a mistake.
How could the Lord use me then? If I choose not to acknowledge my sins? How could He work through me when I choose not to listen to him?
Dear Lord please help me clean my heart. Show me the sins I have gotten so used to, that I don't see them as a sin anymore. Help me turn away so I can be worthy of your Love and your Grace. Amen
and renew a steadfast spirit within
me" Psalm 51:10
I remember the day I read this and I remember where I was when I was reading it. It was the second day of my new job and I was sitting in my car trying my best not to cry.
It has not been an easy year, and it has not been my proudest either. There was stress in my old job, drama in my family, frustrations and disappointments. So somehow in the middle of all of this, I lost my way. I allowed myself to become someone I almost did not recognize.
When I lost my job, I started coming home late, spending more money then I should, taking out my frustrations on my family, staying away from home, lying about where I was, who I was with, I even stopped planning about my career. I allowed myself to drift. I was a boat going nowhere, just trying to disassociate from all the drama that has become my life.
Finally I was caught driving drunk and I saw the disappointment in my dad's eyes. This woke me up, and I am starting to put my life in order again. But it was only through acknowledging my mistakes that I was able to clean up.
By ignoring them and justifying them, I chose not to see them as a mistake.
How could the Lord use me then? If I choose not to acknowledge my sins? How could He work through me when I choose not to listen to him?
Dear Lord please help me clean my heart. Show me the sins I have gotten so used to, that I don't see them as a sin anymore. Help me turn away so I can be worthy of your Love and your Grace. Amen
Submitted by:
Anna Franchesca Noval
Registered Nurse
thanks for sharing this chesca. :)
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