Addiction No More

“Lord, if you wish, you can make me clean.”

Luke 5: 12

Raised by Christian parents, grew up with strong Christian values. When I was young I never imagined that it would become one of the dark chapters in my life where I was hooked with drugs.

After I graduated in high school, I was blessed to go to a well- known university in the Philippines. But when I started my first year of college life. Everything was so different. I felt intense freedom which resulted to failing grades. I ended up returning back home to finish college.

That was in the year 2001, I was so depressed I got involved with people who changed my life after that time. It was out of depression and curiosity, I did it. I took the drugs in my system and it had been a craving for 3 years. It was God’s greatest battle for me. I felt it. I remember I would come home not in the right mind, my dad would hug me and he would say this “ How is my daughter? How’s school?” And he would kiss me in the forehead.

I would just run into my room and burst into tears. I can’t take it. And then the drug’s effect slowly would be gone and depression sets in again. Every time we took it, i would pray in my head “ Lord, please save me from this. Make me stop ...please...” I wanted to be saved, to be cleansed from all this wrongdoing. Addiction is a sickness that I believe only God can make it stop as long as you are willing to.

After 3 years of battle, I just woke up one day and the craving was gone. God saved me. I believed he healed me from it. I was the only one in the group who never resulted to drug rehab. Praise you Lord God!


-Jean